page i made for my friend's zine about transness! my animal self...
Lora’s music for canines!
Are you also a dog?? Isn’t it so fun to pitter patter your paws when you dance! Don’t you like it when you hear songs that help you feel more connected to your theriotype? Here are some below that I found that are part of really cool albums and made by really cool artists!
So, so frustrating to toss and turn for hours at night. The time passes by so quickly when I can’t sleep it’s really strange to me, hours become short minutes! And most of the time. The only thing that can get my mind to stop racing and let me actually rest. Is it shift and pray that I am how I want to be. To curl up and be a dog, softly wagging myself to sleep. I’m happy to have a way, now, to let me doze off, even if it still doesn’t work every time.
the dog urge to escort my friends everywhere and growl at anyone who looks at us. like yeah no, i promise i can be normal in public. but that guy keeps starring at us and i think he’d leave us alone if i growled at him.
the dog urge to bark and wag when I’m too excited or afraid. And instead trying my best to be still and silent because my friends or family would stare. Even if, it’s still so relieving and joyful to do it when it feels safe!
thinking about werewolves
werewolves that find comfort in the moonlight. werewolves who adore the sunlight. werewolves with ptsd from transforming. werewolves being overjoyed after their first transformation. werewolves being open about their fears and loves in their lycanthropy and finding solace in others. turning another as a sign of love, trust, and consent. full moon ceremonies. werewolf body language. werewolf slang blending with human slang. humans who grow up in a pack of werewolves and being practically identical to them. the first time a werewolf is welcomed into their pack. packs of all kinds. hippie packs of werewolves travelling across the country in a van way too small for all of them. a small town gas station run by the local werewolf lady who’s ears perk up and smiles when you walk in. elder werewolves. retirement homes for werewolves. elder werewolves playing and spending time with their grandcubs. werewolves with control over their transformations and live as a constant mix of human and wolf. werewolf coats, mannerisms, traits, and forms differing depending on where they live in the world. city dwelling werewolves. countryside werewolves. backpacking werewolves finding entire towns filled with werewolves and packs and realising that yes, they can find home exactly as they are. werewolf safe havens. famous werewolves using their influence for progressive change. a human and werewolf finding love. cubs playfighting with the human kids in the neighbourhood. werewolves with huge families and all kinds of siblings and elders and cubs. werewolf families having weekly game nights and dinners with their human neighbours. werewolf trait genetics. cubs who have frail fur and short nails and babble instead of bark. cubs who are furry and have fangs and claws and snouts and shrill little howls. werewolf siblings where one appears fully human and the other looks like the family dog and they don’t even notice a difference. coed human and werewolf schools. the football team populated by werewolves. the track team winning national championships every year. the spring play of Beauty and the Beast winning the community vote for best costume design. drama kid werewolves painting sets and getting acrylics and oil paints in their fur. recess being the preschool cubs favourite time of the day—right after lunch of course. night classes for werewolves and insomniac human students. one day the English teacher comes in half transformed and just sighs and calls it a movie day. prom being won by a werewolf and human couple. werewolf outreach groups to help those recently turned. search and rescue werewolves. war dog werewolves. werewolf physical and mental therapists. werewolf astrologists. werewolf clinics. werewolves consenting to their bodies to be used for scientific research when they pass. organ donor werewolves. werewolf scientists working to discover their true origin. hormone therapy for werewolves who find it difficult to transform or those who need help controlling their transformations. werewolf summer camps. werewolf sled teams. land owners who are both the grounds dogs and the ranchers. werewolf herding dogs. werewolves who grow out their fur then cut it to make coats for werewolves who’ve lost their fur. werewolves who carry the fangs of their deceased with them. werewolf bones laid to rest next their human mate in graves thousands of years old. tombs of packs and families in pristine condition. oil paintings of packs hundreds of years old. werewolf funeral traditions. discovering that multiple influential poets, archaeologists, leaders, scholars, scientists, etc. in the past were werewolves. werewolf and human history being intertwined for millennia. drawings and scriptures and proverbs of large speaking wolves living alongside the humans depicted. myths and stories and tales and passages about werewolves. times in history where humans and werewolves were virtually indistinguishable. the oldest known cave drawings full of massive paw prints placed purposefully and lovingly right next to human hand prints. werewolves. <3
idk what i am anymore. i’m literally just a dog/wolf. i don’t have the specifics i am literally just canine. limiting myself to just being a black gsd wolfdog feels wrong. but i don’t feel like a husky, for example. mostly varying degrees of GSD, wolf, coyote.. i’m not trying to search anymore. i’m just gonna exist and see if it comes to me. and if it doesn’t, that’s okay. i can just be canine, and that’s okay, too.
this is a message to all of the new (or those who’ve been here longer, but are still questioning) alterhumans out there. one day you might figure it out. or maybe not. but overall; it’s okay not to know right now. it’s okay to take time. it’s OKAY to NEVER know. it’s OKAY to just be canine (for example) without truly identifying as a cladotherian. it’s OKAY to say I’M A DOG and leave it at that. YOU DON’T OWE DECISIVENESS, and YOU DON’T OWE SPECIFICS.
